Hi! Sorry it has taken me forever to get this post out... But now its done!!! YAY!!! Okay what I really wanted to get out was about one of my mom's friends moms. I know kind of confusing but heres the deal. Her name is Jan and just a couple of years ago she got breast cancer in one of her breasts. The doctors got rid of it and a year later she got breast cancer in the other breast, She got them removed. Two months later she is doing fine goes to the doctors for a checkup and guess what now she has leukemia. They were getting bone marrow and everything for her when they realized she had mold in her lungs. They removed the mold from her lungs and she is now recovering from the infection and is still going on with her luekemia battle. I didn't realize how emotional it was with Lucy until I learned of her battle. I hope she defeats the cancer. Please hope for the best for her. Thanks, now time for the post. :)
It was time for the girls to age up. "Get ready!!!!" Joanna shouted this year they were all going to blow out their candles at the same time. "BLOW!!!!!" Lucy shouted. Each of the girls blew with great force.
Felicity was a shy sweethart, she is very beautiful. Hopefully she will stand up and find her place in life.
Anilisa Marie. She insisted on makeup even though I thought she was beautiful without it.
Joanna. Independent as always. She is really pushing to be on the baseball team, the coach is still on the fence....
Maddilyn who is such a pretty girl. She certainly makes that green hair work!
Lucky is very pretty! She looks sooo much like Sarah!!
And of course Lucy, even withour her hair she is beautiful.
"Mom? My head hurts..." Lucy called to me while I was in the kitchen. "Just take some Tylenol or Advil and if it doesn't get better we will go to the hospital okay?" "Okay." Lucy muttered. "Do you feel naueseus honey?" "No not really mom!" Lucy claimed.
LUCY"S POV
I lied to my mom. I had felt like this for a few days now. A few weeks had passed since our birthday and I have been in and out of the hospital six times. I was done. If I were to die right now I didn't care at least it would all be over. It's not that I don't like living it's just the fact that I don't get to do my hair for prom and I don't get to go to the mall whenever I want or learn how to drive. I get to stay at home with a splitting headache. I had been throwing up for the past few days I was mainly throwing up blodd and every time I did vomit it made my nose bleed which is really bad. I didn't care. As long as my mom didn't find out this is how I could finally leave this earth. To be free of cancer, because I am almost 100% positive Im not going to get over this. I've had it my whole life practically it's not gonna be easy to shake off.
My mom told me to head back up to bed. She said I could make up my schoolwork when I felt better. I could hear her downstairs with Daniel. She was cooing him. I finally fell asleep to the sound of her singing.
I went outside where my sisters were swimming. My mother handed me my medicine and I poured it into a cup. I drank the glass quickly. The concoction sat heavily in my stomach.
My medicine wasn't working instead it was pushing my insides out. I grabbed my stomach prepared to spew.
I clutched my abdmen and moaned. It was the most unbearable pain ever. I didn't dare yell for my mom I thought that if I didn't tell her I would meet my end. Okay I'll say something I really don't want to die but if it will get me out of this I'll do anything.
I went and sort of knocked out on the couch. I wasn't really sleeping just resting my head.
I heard my mom walk into the room with Daniel. He is a toddler now so she must be teaching him how to talk or something, I didn't open my eyes. I just laid and listened.
"Oh yeah c'mon Daniel!" My mom whispered. I knew she was being quiet for my sake. I listened as she taught him how to walk. I thought how my mom would feel if I did die. I knew she would be heart broken. My sisters would too. I laid there and listed many other people who might miss me.
I guess I did actually fall asleep. I woke up to my stomach twisting. My sisters were home and my mom was in the kitchen. I ran to the bathroom to spill the contents of my stomach. My nose started to bleed instantly my head started to throb and I was still vomiting blood. I was tired of this after this I was going to go tell my mom it was time to go to the hospital.
I threw up for a good ten minutes my mom was yelling for me but I told her 'One second' or 'I'm just going to the bathroom!' She did try to come in once but the door was locked. When I was done I ran to the hall.
I felt faint. As I was running I yelled "MOM!" The last thing I remembered was my head hitting the floor with a thud and my mom screaming "Call an ambulance!!"
Caitlins POV!!!!!!!
I looked from the kitchen to see why Lucy had yelled. I saw her lying on the floor. Her chest wasn't rising or falling I screamed at the girls to call an ambulance and I went and cradled Lucy in my lap. Her eyelids were deep purple and I could tell she had been throwing up. How could I have missed that? I was mad at myself but I was also curious of why Lucy didn't tell me.
We got our regular room in the hospital. They had put many chairs in the room so we could all sit. Daniel was at home with a babysitter.
I called Patrick and told him Lucy was in the hospital again. He was away in Egypt for a business tour and was checking up on the girls since the day he left.
The girls sat on the far wall. "Can we go get some food?" Maddi asked. "I'm hungry too!"Anilisa proclaimed. "Sure I guess.... Have fun don't be too loud!"
Lucy woke up and didn't look at me. Tears dribbled down the sides of her face. "I'm sorry she whispered." "Honey this isn't your fault! You needed more bone marrow! It's my fault I should have known." I tried to console her but she wouldn't take it. "No I'M Sorry. I lied I have been throwing up a lot and I have felt faint lately. I didn't tell you because I thought that could be it and I wouldn't have to struggle for my life anymore I could finally die and be happy." I did a double take. Did Lucy really want to die.?.?
"Sweety. You will get over this I promise, even if you have to go home and your still sick I will make it the best time of your life. The challenge can be paused and we can do whatever you want we can swim everyday and I will make your favorite food. I will make your life the best life possible. But you have to tell me when you don't feel well. You promise?" I asked. Lucy cracked a smile "I agree." She giggled a bit. Why I may never know.
"I'm going to get up." Lucy told me. "Sweety I wouldn't do that, your still weak..." "Psh, it's fine mom. Gosh I'm not a baby." Lucy replied quite snottily. I just rolled my eyes.
"Oh my head hurts." She whined. "Told you so now lie back down." I said rising from my seat to assist her.
"I got it m-" Lucy said quietly before falling to the ground with a thud.
She lied on the floor for what seemed like an eternity I screamed for the doctor and about nine nurses bursted through the door.
I stood struck by fear as they brought my daughter back to life. They hooked her up to machines and wipped her away to the ICU. Little did I know they took her to the surgery hall and she had another bone marrow transplant. She had some fluid build up near her brain too so they emptied that. They are not quite sure why she stopped breathing however.
She returned to the room about three hours later. She lay on the bed sleeping while I read a book silently. I can't wait until this is all over I thought. I went to the cafeteria to check on the other girls.
LUCYS POV: When I woke up nobody was in the room. I remembered falling to the ground but nothing after. I thought to myself that I might be dead. A ghost. Dust in the wind. I began to cry. I paced the room and banged on the door. Nobody came to assist me. Nobody can hear me I thought. I became hysterical sobbing my last conversation with my mom was practically a fight. She was right and now I'm dead!
I wiped a tear from my eye. "I'm sorry mom." I sniffed. Then as if a sign the door creaked open.
"LUCY!!!!" My mom shouted with a smile the size of the eqauter on her face. "Sweethart it's fine, your okay we can go home now. It's alright." my mother cooed to me. "I can go home now?" I asked still sniffling. "Yes honey, its time to go home.."
I felt really stupid when my mom left the room so I could change. I couldn't believe I thought I was dead. But now I've realized no matter how much I tell myself I hate life, I really don't. I changed my clothes and was about to leave the room when I looked up and smiled. "Thank you." I whispered. Then I left the room.
I had been home for two full weeks now. For the past two days now I have been violently ill. Again I have not told my mother. I know I should and all but I just can't.
The toilet was still grimy since I didn't clean it after my last vomit episode. I threw up again long and hard. Felicity called to me. It was Friday night and tonight was a swimming party. Just for us girls. I changed into my swimsuit and ran outside.
My sister (Exceot for Joanna and Felicity) Were all screaming Rebecca Blacks Firday song. Quite frankly I don't like the song but to those like my sisters who do I won't critisize... (Even though she does sound like a dying walrus.)
I hopped out of the pool and felt my head. I was burning a fever which was not good at all. I could feel the warmth on the back of my neck and my throat started to clog with blood.
I stumbled backwards. Oh no! I thought not here not now not in front of my sisters. My mom will know I have lied to her again. I will never be trusted! The thought of me actually falling did not occur to me. I thought I could stay standing tall I was awfully wrong.
My head smacked to the hard stonbe pavement it became wet with blood. The last words I heard my sisters say together at a high pitch tone was "MOM!!! OH IT"S LUCY!!!!! I'TS LUCY!!!"
Caitlins POV. I ran. I ran as fast as I could. But there is no speed a mother can travel fast enough to stop your child from falling when their two flights of stairs and a living room away.
I bolted outside Lucy was lying on the ground. The girls were getting out of the pool. I ran to Lucy's side. She had a big gash on the side of her head. Her breathing was slowing down. "Come on Luce stay with me."
I prayed silently then went into total mother mode. "Anilisa go get the hospital bag." "Madeline, call the babysitter so they can watch Daniel. Felicity Joanna and Lucky get the car started. Go!" I commanded and like little robots they all responded.
They ran inside the house and were changing. I whipped out my phone.
"Hey, it's Caitlin. Yes Murray. Lucy has fainted again. She's regaining conciousness yes. We will be at the hospital in five minutes. Thanks bye." My conversation was the same as it was every time,
Lucy stood up and held her head. "Why am I bleeding?" She shrieked. I held her up on my shoulder and led her to the car.
"Mom?" "What is it Lucy?" "I'm sorry I should have told you....." I didn't want to respond I would have yelled if I did. She was sick again and yet again I did not know and she did not tell me.....
We arrived at the hospital in the middle of the night almost. Lucy had two big gashes on the side of her face. The doctor said they should heal right up on their own. Lucy slept soundly as me and a nurse pushed multiple cots into the room.
This room was different from our usual room which at the moment was holding a mother and her newborn baby. It was much smaller but each of us could fit fine.
The girls all slept on cots. I decided to sleep on the couch that was already in the room. I should've let the girls stay home, but I really wasn't thinking much.
In the morning I told the girls to go home they were all antsy plus I needed to have a one on one talk with Lucy. She woke up about nine in the morning and she instantly started crying.
She had a bad look on her face as she sat down. My smile never got any bigger nor did it get any smaller. "Let's start with the basics you fell on the stone path so that's why your face is jacked up, don't worry it'll heal right up they did some more blood tests and-" "Aren't you mad at me?" she asked interupting me. "I was at first but now I'm not can I finish?" "Uhh yeah sure?" She said questioningly. She was still sniffling.
"Well as I was saying they did sonme more blood tests. Luce your white blood cell count is up to 7,000. Your fever was spiking because it was defeating the last of the leukemia. Sweethart. Your cancer free now." My smile stretched across my face. Lucy began to smile too. "It just took my whole childhood to recreate blood cells. Oh well it could be worse." She started laughing. I didn't intervein.
I hugged her. "Just wait." I said. "You will be a young adult in 2 days."
When we got home I snatched my little guy from the babysitter. "Mommy missed you so much!!!!" I cooed.
"I can't wait until we are adults!" Joanna told the others excitedly. "I can do anything I want then!" Maddilyn rolled her eyes. "As long as Lucy's healthy I'm happy." She said
Maddi took Lucy and pulled her into a tight hug. "I love you!" She told Lucy
The girls sat down and did their homework. Lucy crakced a joke about her hair or something and Anilisa Marie started to crack up.
When Lucy was done she came and sat by me. Her face had made a complete recovery such as her insides. "One day I'll have a full head of hair and me and my husband will run off into the sunset with ponytails in our hair." I could tell she was completely serious but I started to laugh hysterically.
The next day while the girls were at school I set up the party decor.
I bought a dance floor and a stereo system,
I included balloons and cakes.
When the girls got home the guests had already arrived. They all walked to their cakes and began the process of growing up.
""What to wish for?!?!" Lucy yelled with a grin. "Oh I know!" And she blew out her candles.
The girls all grew up to be beautiful.
Lucy had finally grown some hair. She looks sooo pretty. She's going to be a doctor or a musical therepist.
Anilisa Marie went all natural. She is very pretty this way. She looks so much like Lucy.
Maddilyn. She aspires to become a famous traveler. I hope she fulfills that dream. It would be so muuch fun.
Lucky is very pretty. She wants to be a teacher.
Felicity. She is still shy but oh so beautiful!
(For some reason I have no pic of Joanna.... I'm sorry Joanna!!!)
I cradled Daniel in my arms after all of the girls had left for their own adventures. Then I went outside to access the damage.
It was a total pigsty! I started to clean up and amazingly I finished.
There were four bags of trash by the end of it
I had also washed over 30 dishes. My hands ached and the skin started to peel off of them.
In the morning I picked Daniel up. He wasn't bright eyed and bushy tailed as always so I took him inside.
I tossed him into the air and he started laughing. "There's my Daniel!" I told him. Now it was time to age him up. He was skilled. So I thought it would be a good time since it was Saturday.
"Happy birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday my Danny boy happy birthday to you!"
Daniel leaned over and blew out his own candles like a big boy.
I bought a brand new shiny red car. (Not really shiny and really random right now but I bought one.....)
Anyway... Daniel stood up and danced around. Time to grow up!
To celebrate we were going to go out to eat. It was already dinner time and Daniel was excited. "What am I going to order?" He asked like I would know. "Oh I don't know a hamburger?" "Bleach those are gross!!!!" he shouted I couldn't agree more. We both started to laugh. Daniel changed the radio station to a great song. He started to sing. "I got the magic in me!" I tuned in. "Everytime I touch that track it turns it into gold!" He echoed "Yes it turns to gold!!!!"
A car was in our lane. I knew I was on the right side of the road. I honked and tried swerving over another car blocked the other lane. I screamed at Daniel. "Hold on!" I stretched my arm over to him and covered him as best as I could I slammed on my breaks as the other person accelerated. I heard the bam of the two vehicles hit and me and Daniel were thrown from the car. I held on to him the best I could.
Firefighters POV! "We need a dispatcher to road 995 somebody needs to report to the intersection of Maplewood Lane and road 995 there has been a rollover possible of 5 injured 2 may be dead." The radio message bounced in my head. I drove my nice firetruck to the scene. What I saw astounded me. Two cars had collided and rolled into the side of the road. I could see a young bot and his mother clinging to each other. I could not tell if they were breathing or not.
In the other car there lay a girl. She was struggling to get out. I told her to stay calm. Then I called for backup
I looked at the scene in horror. I really did not know how the accident was caused.
I stood there for a while until I heard the sirens then I went to work trying to pry the trapped victims loose.
I got the boy up. He stood but he was leaning on me. His face was red slick with blood. Some was of his own from a big gash across his face. Some was from his mother. The whole side of her nose had been pried open.
Caitlins POV. The next thing I knew I was staring at my son in a hospital room. His face had a big red streak across it. He was talking with a firefighter.
The man looked over to me. "Your mother's awake." He said in a monotone voice. Daniel looked over at me. What I saw horrified me. A big long streak. It was all across his face. He was smiling brightly. I gave him a weak smile. "Mom! Your finally awake!"
We talked for a while. The scratch on his face was already scarring. I had been in and out for the past three days he told me. He was afraid that I was in a coma but the nice firefighter told him that I would make it through. Then he went into more detail. "The doctors and other firefighters said the metal of the car was what caught my face. I'll have this scar forever but I kind of like it it makes me cool, They also said if we hadn't been wearing our seatbelts we would've flung an extra 40 feet out. The other lady that hit us is perfectly fine but has to pay a ticket cause she was texting while driving. Finally the only reason I don't have any broken bones is because you held onto me and you were my cushion." He started to breathe really deeply.
He looked at me and smiled brightly. "Thank you mommy. You saved my life!" I replied with "I was doing my job of course but it was mostly because I love you so much!"
We talked for a while longer about the weather and we had a few laughs. The doctors came in and gave me and him some pain medication that made us drowsy. The firefighter dude who I guess rescued us from the car came and sat while we slept. I had a feeling he was going to ask about the challenge which I desperately had to start up again soon.
We slept for a long time I guess. The next day I was told we could leave tomorrow. I was really happy. Now I could get me and Daniels life back on track.
I watched Daniel sleep. I looked at his scar. It made me admire him. It looks cool he had said. It's his own battle wound. I smiled, At least he was accepting it.
He slept for a little while longer when the doctor came in. "It's a big big day!" She said cheerfully.
I got up for the first time in 5 whole days. It felt really weird at first but then my feet got used to my weight.
Daniel got up also and we hugged. "Now I can go to school mom!"
Then what I had been expecting happened he came up and asked to be in the challenge. I accepted gratefully. I really did need to continue the challenge, I never did ask his name though...
I remade my look. My contacts had become dry and crusty and had fallen apart when I took them off since the doctors didn't realize I had them in. I felt like a teenager all over again with the glasses. I did however like them.
Daniel played with blocks while me and firefighter guy were upstairs.
"Well are we ready?" I asked just then I heard Daniel shout.
"Come look at my castle! Oh wait I destroyed it!" He laughed really loudly too. I knew he was trying to annoy me but I ignored him.
And we entered myu troom he was the first one who would be well doing it in my bed iwth me........ I actualluy enjoyed it then he left. I really never even thought to aks his name...... Stupid me....
The doorbell rang while Daniel was at school when I went to answer the door I was staring at the woman who had caused the accident. We were staring at each other face to face just as we had been right before we hit. I opened the door and stepped outside.
She started right away. "I am so sorry! I will pay your hospital bill, your groceries for a year anything you want! I was texting and I was so engulfed in the video my fiancee sent me I wasn't watching the road. Is your son alright?" I really did not want to respond to her. I was looking at a video instead of looking at the road. Are people really that dumb? I guess cause it does happen more than you'd think...... "Uhh yeah he's got a scar on his face but it's fine. I just had a small concussion..." I kind of guilt tripped her because she started begging. I really didn't mean for her to feel this way but maybe she would feel some of my pain. I really thought I was going to lose Daniel in that crash..
"So do you forgive me???????" She asked apologetically.
"Calm down. yes, I will forgive you. But you have to promise me that you won't ever text or talk on the phone while driving. I don't care if you say your good at it because apparently you aren't. Thousands of people are injured daily by texter/talkers including one of Violet Jane Newbies children. I don't want to see it ever happen again. Promise?" She looked up from her shoes. "Promise!"
After she left I went and threw up. I was glad I was pregnant, just not glad with the morning sickness.
Then I realizewd they shouldn't call it morning sickness they should call it everytime sickness. Because it was noon and I was throwing up.... Sometimes pregnancy aggrivates me...
I decided to go outside and catch some butterflies. I caught a beautiful red butterfly.
Then I caught an elegant white butterfly.
I got bored so I decided to go to Twinkles to see my grandchildren.
I picked one of them up and tossed them in the air. "Grandma loves you!" I had to leave shortly afterwards so I hugged them both goodbye and left.
When I got home Daniel was doing his homework I praised him.
Then we played a video game together. He beat me horribly. I guess I'm not much of a video gamer...
It was a racing game. He told me it was fine to go slow, I listened.. Then he laughed and told me it was a joke.
I had night sickness. It really wasn't that bad this time,
I clutched my belly. I was now holding a newborn.
I went over to my parents house the next day. I needed to update them a bit.
I hugged my mom and my dad said I should have some breakfast with them.
He made some waffles. They were pretty yummy if I do say so myself.
Then I told my dad that I was pregnant. "Again! Wow #10?" I was amazed that he was right on track "Yeah dad! You guessed it!"
"That's nice to hear sweety!" He told me giving me the thumbs up sign.
He insisted on feeling my stomach. I let him gratefully.
Then I proceeded and told my mom that I was pregnant, I thought that she would be annoyed but she was really happy for me.
That's lovely sweety!" She said. rubbing my belly. "It's a boy!" She exclaimed. I really thought nothing of it.
Somebody came by and took my picture so I posed for them. I am now a three star celebrity. Everyone's getting wind that I'm in the challenge and I'm not giving up.
Then I went to see Twinkle at the park. We chatted and played chess. It was a really busy day. All I wanted to do was go home and relax.
Well eventually I made it home. I sang Philipes Kenspa to Daniel. He loves that song.
Then of course something else just had to happen. An ember rolled out of the fireplace and caught Daniel on fire! Poor kid! He's been through so much! My goodness!
He ran to the shower thank goodness it was just in the other room.
He put himself out pretty quick thankfully.
I put out the stupid flames. Agh! Can today get any worse! All I wanted to do was go to bed but it was only 4! GRRRRR!!!!
I hugged Daniel. "Thank God!" I whispered.
I decided to reread a pregnancy book. Then of course today had to get even more stressful my contractions started.
I decided I was going to have a home birth. I held on to my aching tummy. Bracing the baby.
I gave birth to a healthy baby boy just as my mother had said. I named him Karter.
Welcome to the world my brave athletic little Karter maybe you'll be able to put out fires when they happen.
Thank you so much for reading! This was a very long post! I'm happy to say the future looks better for the Murrays!
I am only 12 years old so some of this is sort of challenging for me. I really enjoyed working with something like Lucy. If you have any suggestions or fathers for the challenge please leave a comment! Thanks again for reading! :) :) : ): ): ) :) :)
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